Whispers to the Void- A Heartfelt Letter to My Emotionally Absent Mother

Dear Mom,

I have been putting off writing this letter for a long time, but I finally feel that it is time to express what I have been bottling up inside. This letter is to my emotionally absent mother, someone who has always been physically present but emotionally distant. I hope that by writing this, I can finally find some closure and understand the reasons behind your behavior.

Growing up, I often felt like I was invisible to you. I remember countless moments when I would come home from school, eager to share my day with you, only to be met with a distracted response or a quick dismissal. It was as if my emotions and experiences were not important enough to warrant your attention. I understand now that you were going through your own struggles, but that does not excuse the pain you caused me.

I remember the times when I needed you the most, and you were nowhere to be found. When I was bullied at school, when I was dealing with my father’s illness, and when I was going through my own personal crises, you were not there to support me. Instead, I felt like I had to be strong for you, to fill the void that your absence created. It was exhausting, and I often wondered if I was ever truly seen by you.

I know that you were never taught how to express your emotions, and that may be why you have struggled to connect with me. I understand that you came from a generation where emotions were not openly discussed, and that you may have internalized this silence. However, that does not mean that you cannot change. I believe that it is never too late to learn how to love and connect with your children.

Mom, I want you to know that I forgive you for the pain you have caused me. I understand that you were not always equipped to be the mother that I needed, but I hope that this letter can be a starting point for us to rebuild our relationship. I want to know you, to understand you, and to have the kind of mother-daughter bond that I have always dreamt of.

I hope that one day you will be able to look back on this letter and see the love and understanding that I have for you. I hope that you will be able to work through your own emotional issues and find a way to be the mother that I know you want to be. I love you, Mom, and I am here for you, just as you have always been for me.